And after my heart felt post the other day, the girl pretty much told me that she didn’t want to see me anymore. What the fuck is wrong with me?
I have been dating a girl now for a few months. She is absolutely amazing. I have known her for 6 years, but we just met for the first time in May. She has had a lot of ups and downs, and we have talked about taking things slow. Some people(friends) think we are moving too slow. It’s actually really strange for me, I’m used to just jumping into a relationship. I have to say, it has had it’s stressful moments, but we had a major break through a few weeks ago. I have actually expressed my feelings and concerns with her and her to me. I have never been so open with my feelings with a woman. When I’m with her I feel free and open, but nervous at the same time. Last weekend we actually cuddled, and this weekend too. Last night we went to a movie and held hands throughout the entire thing. She makes me want to experience new things in life that I usually wouldn’t want to do.
I’m aware that this probably sounds insane coming out of a 32 y/o mans mouth/hands. But this has been the most amazing feeling. I asked last night where we were exactly. She still isn’t ready to put a title on it, Her friend who thinks we are cute together told her that we are “still getting to know each other” It honestly feels like we are more, but I think she is really scared to attach anything to us right now. I’m really hoping things work out well, I feel like a young kid again when I’m with her, and I think about her all the time.